Loneliness June 14, 2008
Posted by Ken in life, uncategorized.Tags: Cities, Friends, life, opinion, Personal Story
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6 years. On June 13 I had left home to work with company in Pune. It was my first job as computer programmer. I had done couple of small stints with uncles, cousins and dad. One with my uncle was fun. With cousin it was painstaking accountancy job. Amazingly boring. Data entry, debits and credits, phone calls and businessmen all around. Sounds dud haan?
With dad it was kind of strange. My job was that of caretaker. Go open the shop till he comes. Customer never came to us; my dad was salesman on the go. Mumbai trotter (Globe trotter) kind.
Leaving Mumbai was easy, I always loved the city I was born and raised. But I never had such great affinity as I have today. It is so true; a human being never values what he has. He is always in search of something different and new.
After living in 4 different cities, and 2 different continents today I miss Mumbai more than anything else. When I say Mumbai, I am talking about my family, extended family, and extra extended family. My few friends; very few. I do not even need fingers to count them, forget about tips.
One thing which always accompanied me since I left home was loneliness. I made many friends; some of them are great pals. These people really gave me sense of friendship and kinship; what friends are. But my loneliness never left me. She/he (what sounds better) is always walking with him, flying with me, riding with me, and sleeping besides me. Now I want to call it “she” for sure.
6 years. It was great journey. A hell of ride. I learnt about life, about people, about devils, and demons, about angels and about me, myself and Irene. Who is Irene? It should be me, myself and loneliness.
I said leaving Mumbai was easy; it was not because I did not like it much. I had bigger excitement of new job. Later I got addicted to my freedom and still not fully out of it. Philosophy says you can not be happy forever; you will have to give it up some day. One thing I must say; freedom is one side of coin. Other is my dear loneliness.
I think I can go on about my story, philosophy and psychology. I must stop here. I am back after long time and do not want my come back to be dragged brag. Okie Dokiee. Time to sign off.
thank you for sharing…i have been in your shoes and loneliness was no friend of mine!!
it’s all in our heads…. and when i learned this life became a beautiful experience… check out my article when you can
Jennia,
Thank you for reading and comments. Life is beautiful for me as well. I have wonderful friends and amazing experience.
I’ll definitely come and stop by to read your. Currently I am having fun with my friends in Chicago.
Ken
hey ken
Good to c ya back.
You know Ken , u never miss a place u miss the feel of the place and thats with people ….. the familiarity and comfort with the surrounding can be achieved eventually with any other place too.
Lonliness….have u ever felt lonely in a crowd , or say a group of dear ones and sometimes just alone within yourself and yet not lonely????????
Hmn true and false. When I say place or city I do not mean only the Geographic point or buildings. I mean everything about the surrounding, soul and spirit of it.
And I do miss that.
I have felt loneliness in the crowd and it happens many a times that you are not lonely when you are alone all by your self.
Ken
Dude…..you are so ready for a gal…. to find your one and only soulmate…I mean a hot chick….and then….
:P
….blah blah…..blah blah
On a more serious note, you cant have your cake and eat it too…if you want freedom then be free but you’ll be all alone……if you want company then you have to sacrifice on freedom and independence a bit.
agreed… objection sustained..
but woh hot chik to mile, jiske liye mein apna freedom sacrifice kar doon..